The Creator

When I was small I always wondered what G-d was. After leaving the cult I had nothing to believe in anymore. Here is a chapter of my diary that I wrote when I was ten years old:

 Who made the creator? Where was he when he made the universe? Maybe the creator is smaller than the univers. Like humans travel to outer space, maybe the creator traveled to the universe and created it there. What's bigger than the universe? Before, how did the world turn dark (Tohu Vavohu)? What was the world like before that? In what years was the creator born? If it was magic, who waved the magic wand? Is the creator invisible? Is he a piece of air? Is he a superhero? How did the world begin? Is he a girl or a boy? Maybe the creator disappeared after creating the universe. Maybe the creator transformed/turned into the universe. How did the first person learn how to talk? Was Adam the first person? Maybe there was a human before the creator. Is that possible? Maybe the creator is electricity. How do thoughts appear in a person's head? Maybe the creator puts thoughts in everyone's head. Anyways, these were the thoughts I had in my head today. (And if god thinks that these are not holy thoughts than too bad because there is a fifty percent chance that he put it in my head.)